your lil desire

2009-09-26T07:16:00.001-07:00

No more blogger for mua , this is personally layout for friends .

2009-07-23T01:53:00.000-07:00

Heyy ! i feel disgusted viewing my own blog . Errgh . So dirtyy laa ~
Well , i think only a few of you know my new blog url right ?
Ill be updating there more often . See you there bloggers~

2009-07-19T22:13:00.000-07:00

Ross : mebbe u shud kno me well. u used to send me hate tags at my blog! so i tink u deserve diz shit. but im done here becos im not as much of a whore as u r. its time u realise ur mistake n stop spamming!

Give me your blog url . so i would know your real identity and recall back . So id know what really bothers you . I deserve what shit ? I dont find it shit , cause this is making me stronger . I would call it , urm . Guide to me stronger ? Haha , yeaa . Youre done here ? Im not done with you Ross . If youre not much of a whore as i am , why bother passing by my blog and tag nonsence . So tell me , who is the whore now ? To begin with it , who started this mess ? Its time for me to realise my mistake ? Theres such thing as talking nicely . And not doing things like hooligans would . Mistake ? Urmm , i dont think i did any mistake for the pass few days neither months or weeks . I know what im doing , i dont need you to correct me . Correct your life pumpkin .

Sorry to say this but all the hate tags youve been giving me is sent to someone else . So i suggest before that someone do something to you , you better own up and come my house . Im being nice enough to give face to you and give in . Cause i wanna know what is it that youre not happy with . If i could recall , its about the Simei post wasnt it ? If youre not a whore , talk to me face to face and urm , only a whore would do this . Dont go away , im not done with you .

Ross oh Ross , my life isnt pathetic laa .

2009-07-19T19:55:00.001-07:00

Ross oh Ross , my life isnt pathetic laa . My mum loves me , my dad loves me , my sister loves me and my sunshines loves me . My mum & dad everyday before going to work kiss my forehead and my cheecks . My sister would hug me . And in the car , my mum would send sweet smses to me . I show you today one kaay .

"Putri putri umi , selamat pagi . Semoga diberkahi pagi ini dengan rezeki bertumpah luah . Semoga hari ini penuh dengan murni dan kegembiraan . love you . "

and you call this pathethic ? Haha , my toes are laughing . in the car otw home , we talked about you and my dad is so fired up . And who knows what he is going to do .
I admit ive hate-tag before . But not to my friends -___-
So , dont anyhow say can or not ?! And its been a long time since i hate-tag people how i wish i could hate tag you Ross . Now , look whose talking ?! Its like in the middle of the month and now youre telling me ?! Come on la girl . I felt nothing when you tell me all this shit cause to me , they wont do that laa kay . And besides , why would they give me a warm welcome when i went to Bgss ? Im neutral to all this things , and i still want your email address bofore i start tracking down . And why are you so dumb eyh ? Im not schooling in bgss , what for i go there ? tsk tsk -____-'
You own a blog ? I would go to your blog and rply to your tags at your blog , i wouldnt be rplying here . Use your brain before talking . Who on earth is Ross . Firstly , i dont know you . and i WANT to know you . I already stop spamming , erm . since last two years ? Haha , wake up call for you girl ! Dont be kepo . If youre really sure thts me , check ip codes leeeyh . Dont talk anyhoww . I dont care about being like cause im not into popularity ? And im not with them the whole entire time laa okay . Im at home . So , why are you tryna be physco ? Not buzzing off cause this is my blog . My blog , my say, my rights . get tht ?! Act big shot ? im at school with friends bursting into laughter , talking and we dont go to people . After school , bble tea and blablabla . Then go home . Big shot ? what talking you maaanxz ?! again and again with budak bgss . Im not schooling there anymore laaa . Why wasting your time telling me about this ? I dont find it hurting . Dont wanna see my face ? Aku da tk school . Brape kali aku nak bilang kau ni ?! Im not done yet with you . Hoping that i'll see your face infront of my doorstep .
lemme give you my block kaay sugar . we discuss in my house w/o you being humiliated . us two , noone else . Anything ask my close friends for my number . Pape picit . Im 24/7 with my hp . hehe -_-

blk 284 tampines street 22 . #02-157
Singapore 520284 .

No kick la this game

2009-07-18T23:19:00.000-07:00

Ross , once again aku nicely bilang kau back off and shut up . Asal tknk pass aku email address kau ? senangkan nk bebual . Senangkan untuk kau kutuk aku . Seriously eh , stop this before something bad really really happen . Kalau aku stand up for my rights , aku menang ape ?! Tak la macam kau . Internet warrior eh ? Waaah . Takut nye . Add aku kat msn jadi aku leyh cakap ape aku nak . Nanti jatuhkan marwah kau pulak . Tak la mcm kau jatuhkan marwah org sembarangan je . Ish ish ish . Betul betul tak pakai otak untuk berfikir . My friends are not kental . Bawak la battalion kau tuk spam aku . Dorang ade kat tagboard aku sebab dorang kawan sejati aku . DORANG BERHAK untuk nak caci maki kau . Youre making my toes laughing . Youre not pulling me down Ross . Aint working . Before anything happens , please shut your ubberly ugly and big mouth . I dont need any of it from you . You know , youre making my day much more happier . My mum and dad thinks youre funny . Haha ! Kekek laaa ~
So girl , im giving you the last chance . Toodles ~

2009-07-17T22:55:00.001-07:00

Doesnt mean that i back off means im lozing . Send me your picture . Add me in msn .
Pass me your msn add . All i can say is alhamdulillah , da puas jatuhkan aib aku ? Da puas jatuh kan marwah aku ? Then , if you think youre clever why are you wasting your time spamming ?
Further more , im giving you the last chance to shut your bloody mouth okaay ?! I have lots to say to you . But what for waste my time .

2009-07-17T16:21:00.000-07:00

Just so you know , im taking my o's next year . tu laa , aku ckp tkmu ckp sembarangan .Haha , Khairul tak kesa ?! Hari hari die contact aku la kepo ! . Kau brani tag nonsence , aku brani ban . Grow up ! if you dont know my background shut your trap . Giving you one last chance to back off and shut your pie hole cause my life doesnt bother you . it wont bring you any good kaay kepo . oh wait , i want to know who you are . better kan ? bye kepooo
ill get back to you once i finish my phone call with khai .

Kepo kepo kepo kepo kepo

2009-07-16T23:09:00.000-07:00

Youre so kepo , view people's blog and be sucha a immature and tag nonsence .
Precisely , kau tak tahu hidup aku mulut kau seal suda ! okay ?
Haha ! Im going nowhere without o level's cert ? Eh kepo aku nanti amik o la kepo .
Tak tahu sit one corner tutup mulut . Tak ya nak step kau tahu aku je . Ape yang kau tk puas hati , kepo ?! Pasl post tu ?! Haha , immature nye . Grow up la kepo . Abih da kala point , kau tag aku pasal education aku . SUMPAH TAK MENYUSAHKAN KAU KEPO . Haha ! So funny . Pakai tudung , kening mcm mina ? HAHA ! LOL !
serious or whaaat ?! kau pergi tegor uh makcik makcik yang gy cukur kening sumpah kau kene sepak ! Tak sayang mulut ! Diri aku , suke hati aku ape aku nk buat . Yang penting tak menyusahkan hidup kau langsung . Eh kepo , aku ade ip code kau la kepo . Anytime aku leh report kepo . Yang kau nak stress sangat pasal aku nye hidup ni apasal ? Kau alami ?
Tak kan ? Baik kau ngan mulut kau , diam suda ! Haha , aku slalu in contact ngan budak skula . Anytime aku boleh tanye . Hahaha . SO KEPO LA KAU NI ! sape aja kau jadi kepo ni ?!
Hahaha , banyak banyak post aku , kau tag pasal yang simei . Tak ke kepo tu ?!
Dah sah kepo ! Aku stupid whore ? dengar dengar aku whore sangat sampai aku fail sume subject aku ? Hahah ! Tu la , lain kali jangan jadi kepo . Kerane mulut , badan binase . Kay kepo ! Aku tkde mase nk layan kau . Stop being kepo and shut your trap ! Easy as 1 2 3 . Bye kepo !!
Saling jumpe ! Kepo!

218.186.13.231

2009-07-12T21:51:00.000-07:00

Correction Ross , i went there to eat at Banquet . Besides , you werent there so dont say anything ayee . Suchaa a makcik kepo laaaa .

Lalalalalala ~

Macam one kepo person i knoww . nevermind laa as long as they happy .

Alright, ive spent days and days on my new blog . And i like it !
Relinks to be done okaaay . Ill pass you my link :D
byebye

What a gloomy day

2009-07-11T00:12:00.000-07:00

Slept around 2+ in the morning and woke up at 7 in the morning .
Went to bedok to have our breakfast & then send Hamna to her class .
After which headed to Geylang
with my aunty . It was fun ! Bought things for hari raya .
Then mum & aunty decided to go to the supermarket :/
Me and sis took care of the things and waited for the two lovely souls at the taxi stand .
To save money , i called Wak Taib to fetch us . Hehe ! And here i am blogging .
Bored laa seyhoo . Mum & dad went out for jemputan .
Will be heading Johor with sunshine(s) tomorrow ! The whole lot of them ! Hahaha .
Itso going to be kecohh and super funn . I cant wait .
Since im done updating , i shall pack my bags . Sleeping over at Ibu's house .
Yey yey ! :D

Hey Kina , pass me your url or either your fs or perhaps fb if you own one ?
Cause i dont have a friend with such name .
Thankss ~

Alot Like Love

2009-07-08T09:06:00.000-07:00

♥ , its you that i'll always run to when im drenched in tears .
Youre forever charming smile . Im afraid of losing you .
You treat me like your little princess , thank you ♥ .
Even how ugly our fights turn you'll be there to give in .

Im still single alright , dont let your imaginations run wild

It Was Fun Overall

2009-07-08T08:17:00.000-07:00

So today was filled with shopping spree with Hamna and dearly Sister <3
Bus-ed to Bedok , then took 38 to Simei then train-ed back to Tampines .
Alot of laughters and problem shared . And theres these few ladies at Banquet kept
on looking at me . What ?! Funny is it ? Haha , i give them the shut-your-trap-hooligans-kinda look . Hehe . And theres alot of students shouting in the mall and act as if its their parents property . Hooligans much ? Haha , theyre like shouting here and there . And spits swoned words out . Tsktsk . So i'd suggest if you want to have some peaceful shopping spree , dont go to Simei . Haha !

Kayy la , done story telling .
byebye :D
chalo love bugs

Fullstop

2009-07-07T07:30:00.000-07:00

Reminiscing . Im just clueless whats coming up next for me .
I shall run over to my private blog , where i can express everything there .
Such a cry baby . I asked ayah , " Yah , adik bangun tidu and i find myself in tears . Why ? "
He gave me then , i-dont-know-how-to-answer-you kindda face . Haha .

♥ , Youre old and wise enough . Im noone .

So yup , i suggest you do whatever that you

want and nobody's stopping you .

Sounds fair ? Uh huh .

No more replica of the pass . Enough of the entourage .

Your antibodies are still weak , yknow it well .

OlEaDy TaK tAhAn LeYh ):

Outing was superb ! I tell ya . Hah !

Hamna tagged along . The more the merrier . Me likee .

Well , ill update the pictures soon . When i feel like it .

Guess what ?! Ive found my missing USB wire . Yey yey !

It was behind the fax machine all along . Tsk .

Its 10.40 pm , ive got nothing to do .

Serve Me Right

2009-07-06T18:20:00.001-07:00

Staring , garing , breathing and enduring .
Dont blame me if i change , honey . its just it .
So i guess , i deserve this cause ive decide to give this love a try .
Serve me right . I dont like to point things out to your face .
I just hope you'll understand . Lesson learned .
I just dont want to take things under my control .
It cripples , tumbles and tearing.
Get well soon ~

Hoping that today will make me forget of what happened .

The all time hurtful feeling .

The knife-poking-feeling , i can still feel it .

Shut down , break down & surrender .

Time And Again ,

2009-07-06T08:32:00.000-07:00

Spent my day over at aunt's crib . Sing Sang Sung ~
Haha , i laughed till my tummy hurts ubber much . And it still does .
Haha ! Todaay is super boring and ill be
heading Ikea with sister and aunty tomorrow.

I just so hate it when people tend to put me in a tight spot .

It just gets to my nerve and i seriously cant take it .

My time is super crucial .

Time and again , you blame me . Id better not take

it to the heart . Cause seriously, it hurts so much .

On a lighter note , Saturday's outing was a blaast !

Haha , i still cant find my USB wire .

over and over again

2009-07-06T00:40:00.000-07:00

Although he promised to call but in the end he's resting .
Let him be , he's unwell . Get well soon .

I just miss everyone . Missing all the pretty souls .

2009-07-04T02:00:00.000-07:00

I love love love you .

Very very very much .

Forever and ever and ever .

2009-07-01T23:00:00.000-07:00

Ive finished all my work already. Alhamdulillah .

Yey ! I can meet my sunshines todaaaay !(:

I have tons and tons of picture and a video to upload but i just cant find the missing USB wire .

Ill search for it later , i think .

The day ive been waiting for . Umi is on leave today and dad worked half day .

So i guess its pretty cool cause i have food to munch at home . Haha~

Which also means , i dont have to run the show with my sister ; just the two of us .

The air-conditioner is being sucha pain , leaking . Sheesh ! Asked dad to wash it for us

haha , he'll do it soon . I think .

My 100th post ! Haha . hiakhiakhiak . So , i think ill change my blog skin .

My mum is being a keypo reading what im typing .

Hiaaak hiaak hiaak .

toodles :D

Farthest Star That I Could Ever Reach ,

2009-07-01T08:35:00.000-07:00

If youre notified enough with the surroundings and how i roll , it dont matter of what you say cause i know my flaws and im learning from my mistakes . Shouldnt everyone be learning their mistakes and dont repeat them ? If you think that i shouldnt be given ze second chance , wheres your heart ? Youre not the only one who wants to feel accepted yknow . Its hard if youre one knuckle head . Even if ive tried smashing you down , i think that wont work . Smart Alex . Tsk tsk . Besides , im taking the oppurtunity to change , uncivilised humans . It really hurts the most when you know people around you just dont accept you for who you are . On second thought , youll be the one creating the upmost hideous story to pull me down . Pull my guard down ? Yea sure , but never my self-esteem . Wake up . Sadist . Youre not the only one in this world deserve the second chance okay . Wakeey wakeey , you dont own the world . Who do you think you are ? President ? My toes are laughing if you think you are . Sucha disgrace . Pathatique . Its not as if you wont the league if you think you can top off everyone . Tsk tsk . Horrifying , terrible ah you .

I hereby would like to get this straight , you are nothing to me , youre not part of my family and youre nothing to me . As simple as that sounds , it means get the hell outta my life and MYOB will you ? So-The-Mak-Cik-Keypo . Cannot angkat one . The malay say , if cannot angkat horh , go seret . If cannot seret horh then buat budo sajala . Hehe ^^

To you , i hope you wont repeat the same mistake over and over again . Let bygone be bygones shall we . Yey yey !

Over heard conversation between my mommy and aunty . It seems like were having a family dayyy ! Yesaaaaa . Sister was somehow overjoyed upon hearing that . Anywhooo , I shall stop blogging . Later i blabber like blabber machine . Then later cannot stop how ? Haha , kay la . Toodles baybay . Chalo love bugs .

2009-06-30T07:47:00.000-07:00

I feel super fresh after my shower cause earlier on had spring cleaning at night with the whole family . Haha , how great can that be . I liikeee . Currently conferencing with this two irritance . Fafa & Shahrunizam kening . Hahaha ~ Ooopssy . Kay laah , im bored . Im super looking forward for tmrww . bye <3

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2009-06-30T01:11:00.000-07:00

So today was ok than yesterday . I guess . Not much happened . And i miss my babygirls and my sunshines alot ! So todays plan was to go Geylang with sis & wak sarah . Planned cancelled cause sis was lazy and on the other hand , i have not taken my shower . Haha . I soo cant wait for this Thursday and Saturday . Haha . Yey !

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Is my phone dead , or is the battery low ? Hold on , i check

*checking*

Kayy back , its on backlight timing . I forgot . Haha .

How great can this be ? No msgs & calls .

Wait , wait . I didnt realise i have one unread msgs .

Lemme check who is from . Shahreen ! Haha .

Halo..ni shahreen..nga uat pe?

Haha . Tengah Chat . Bored .

Oit , best kene marah ngan cikgu ? Hahaha :P

Haha..otak..sanggup tau aku kene mara sal ko..haha..

Alalala, baik nye kau . Cikgu mara ape ? Haha

Dia ckp..hw lum uat da maen kom..haha..ko tak kuar?

Hahaha . Kesiaaan , tak . Kau ngan sape ?

Nan kawan ku..umpe ku ar..

M A L A S , haha

Manekn..!!:-(

Hahaha . Flower uh kau !

Hes single , 17 . Anyone interested ? Haha , fakee .

Im going to be dead if he reads this . Haha

and it goes on and on ...

Kayy laaa . Toodles . Chalo love bugs : D

He brings joy

2009-06-29T21:51:00.000-07:00

Im not stuck with flu . Which means im a healthy goober . Haha ! lame -.-

Yesterday was seriously getting on my last nerve like seriously .

Some of them seriously need a wake up call man.

Toooooopid ! Can you all vent your anger to someone else besides me ?

Grr ~ Chill yo . All thanks to Marco for making me laugh like

one mad woman . And stop asking whats up with the Phidophile will ya ?

Haha . Im home with sister and i cant wait for Thursdaaay !

Come fast will yaaaa . Im almost done with my workk . Yey !

I forgot to mention that Khai text me tdaay . Whaaat a great day .

*jumps around like crazy frog* *screaaaaaaaaam*

Haha , kay laa . I better shower now .

Take care love bugss . Mwaah !

Alhamdulillah

2009-06-29T01:30:00.000-07:00

Im Angry , Im Pissed Off . Man ! Nothing Can Compare To What Im Feeling Right Now, Down Right Speechless !!! Urghh . Mood Terus Hilaang Yknow . I Hate You . Are You Stupid Or Are You Morally Dumb ?! Can I Give You One Freaking Tight Slap ? Mofo ! My Heart Is Pounding Twice Than Its Usual Rate . Sape Kene Jangan Marah Eh . Urggh !

2009-06-28T21:07:00.000-07:00

We were once so spastic , lets put aside our egos and aleast have a heart to see people through . Wht i mean is , to give a second chance to understand whats behind the hidden tales . It dont matter if you dont turn back and bid goodbye but wht matters most is , wheres your heart ?

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Second post for ze day , im just super bored so anything ill just type nonsence things to keep my fingers busy . I need a favour from my fellow friends , please dont call me up early in the morning . Loathes i must say .

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To whom it may concern :

i wasnt that angry actually its just that i just didnt know what ive did and what really went wrong on tht day . I understand what youre feeling but a man gotto have what a man wants . Even if itll risk his life. You have to endure and im sure hell call you once in awhile to check on you , cause i know hell miss you too . Life doesnt go the way you want it to be . Heads up , be strong cause i know deep deep down in your heart , that you want to move on . Follow the flow dearest .

xoxo ,

Annah

Real Eyes, Real Lies.

2009-06-28T20:47:00.000-07:00

Well , basically ive not been updating blog cause ive got nothing to update about and urm it think thats just about it . Now im here infront of the troublesome laptop relaxing myself with a bottle of Green Tea . Id prefer Heaven and Earth . Currently chatting with Shabby . Oh , Happy 19th Birthday Muhd Fadhli Bin Sa'at . May you lead a blessful life and all the best for your future !

I think thats about it . Mundane . Gaaaah ~

I just dont understand people . They tend to under estimate people without knowing the truth and hence it leads to misunderstanding . You show trantrums to me and whats next ? I aint a doll yknow . How tiring can this be ? One after another . Lets put it this way , dont talk to me when you think it isnt necessary . It wont bring you any good .

2009-06-27T01:37:00.000-07:00

My other laptop got confiscated . Haha ! And i have to use this super sloww old laptop . I hate it when it lags and itll switch off by itself . Bersyukur horh . Kay i have nothing to update . Im boreed and my stomach is super irritating .
It hurtss !

2009-06-24T06:00:00.001-07:00

Sometimes i just dont understand whats there to fuss about . You lied .
And it hurts , no matter how hard ive tried closing on eye it still hurt me so much .
So much of you trying to take things calm and forget wht happened . Dont you
realise wht kind of impact youre bringing ? Urgh . Disappointed .

Exboyfriend , where are you ? imy

2009-06-24T05:50:00.000-07:00

Now you see me & now you dont . Chiaaaaak !
Hello , earlier on went out with sister . And i find it boring plus its making me sleepy . I think is was half awake while walking . There was sale everywhere but nothing catched our eyes . Im just waiting for my pay or either my Mum's pay . Then can go shopping . Waaah ! Excellent .

Im down with flu and slight fever .

This Saturday ill be off to KL with my cousins . [ Papi's side ] Cant wait laaaa~ Haha !
Ive been going to , Johor , Kota Tinggi , Tanjung Pinang . Next stop KL . Yey ! Theres lots of pictures in my phone and im just super lazy to upload it . Speaking of my phone , theres scratch on it ): Blame ayah uh ! Emergency break then my phone flew . And it hit his metal thinggy from his work . Do you think my phone can last for atleast 2 years ? I dont think so . Ive dropped it upteen times . Haha ! Clever girl . Hah ! Screww me . Kay la ! Bored already . Byee

2009-06-21T06:31:00.000-07:00

Didnt realize it was coming too fast . It feels like i got hit by a huge bus . Entourage .
Lets skip this . Yesterday trip was a blast . Two cars and a bus . You must be wondering how many people tagged along uh ? after so much of head counts , we settled down with 30 people . It was full of laughters , joy and butt cramp . Haha . The waterfall was super cold and i cant even feel my fingers . We climbed to the top and i want to go again . After which , had our lunch and went for shopping and Pandan City . My sis and i bought two jeans jacket and the price is affordable . Haha . Yey ! At last we got it . Kay im lazy to update more . I shall upload the pictures maybe tomorrow ? The next day ? Lets put it this way , i shall upload it when i feel like it . Haha , byeeeeeeeeeeeeee . Chalo love bugs

2009-06-20T23:34:00.000-07:00

Im jusssssst super lazy to update my blog cause theres nothing to update about .
Currently updating my playlist . Kay toodles love bugs !

2009-06-18T09:46:00.000-07:00

Sunshines

I wont be updating blog for few days as i have something on :D
I cant wait ! :D

2009-06-17T23:25:00.000-07:00

Its adding on to my misery of jealousy and the scar is getting deep . Different perspective i guess . Shouldnt have taken that route . Should have got back to your arms loving you unconditionally . Perhaps its just another illusion . Preventing my rights and wrongs . Im not me when this feeling is conquering me . Not just me , but my heart which is taken but not yet defined . Crap laa this feeling , trying to adapt to the new environment . Provided with the love and care given . Im thinking too much i guess . Ahhh , Shall stay away from this thoughts .

a new improve version of me ,

2009-06-17T22:35:00.000-07:00

Upon reaching Singapore , cab-ed home and received a call from Abang and i feel like killing him ! Urgh , shall not elaborate . Will be off to Sembawang around 1730 . Cant wait to meet em !

I miss the atmosphere back then . It was so relaxing . And i miss loooong bike rides .
I miss lazy bum , i miss Cik Awa , Kak Deti , Osman , Bunda , Tari , Putri and everybody there .
Bid goodbye and that was the saddest part ):
I wish i could stay a little longer . Apart from that , i really had alot of fun minus the part where
we have to return home before 10 . But that dont matter . Shopping here and there . Waah , second time go supermarket . Bought alot of things and zoom home . Haha , Dangerous !
Kay laah , i bored . Nak eat . Toodles love bugs <3

2009-06-14T05:54:00.000-07:00

Listen…

Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it

It’s the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings

The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it

This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock Even though I love you a lot

I’ve given every breath I’ve got Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart To how many times we fell apart

And it equals A promise in the dark So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me Divided by so many memories

And it equals A promise in the dark So don’t promise me

Listen…

I just don’t know what the problem is, what the deal is

Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn’t see it?

All these promises are probably how you deal with it

I’m tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don’t think I forgot Because I really didn’t care if you’re lying a lot

I’ve given every breath I’ve got Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart

To how many times we fell apart And it equals A promise in the dark

So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me

Divided by so many memories And it equals

A promise in the dark So don’t promise me

We all make mistakes Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING

And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals A promise in the dark So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals A promise in the dark So don’t promise me

So don’t promise me So don’t promise me

2009-06-12T14:16:00.000-07:00

This dispute feeling followed by this despondant feeling aint surreal . It hurts so bad . Its 0517 and few hours ago Khai wanted his answer but i disappointed him . My heart aches and it hurts . That spongebob will always be kept near my heart and you too . Im sorry for the unforgettable answer i gave you although youve been so patient with me and endure . Im sorry . Its life . You must move on . Im sorry . I love you so much , deep deep down . Stop coming in my dreams .

Besides that todays fight between me and my friend hurt me so much . So much , that i acted as if nothing did happen . Faking every smile in me . Thats the best i can provide to you cause i dont want to see you sad cause ive repeatedly hurt you .

Sometimes , i feel that its the end for me cause i just dont know how to deal with this . Am i asking too much ? It just isnt fair enough . I dont want to be the victim . I dont want to disappoint my mum and dad . I hate late night phone calls when it only ends with fights and it is utterly give sucha heart ache . Dont you realise this ? Im sick and tired of fights , over and over again . When will it end ? Lets fake things and act normally . Fall , again and again . Undevoted emotions tht lead to sadness . The climax is just beyond of strenght . Alhamdulillah

2009-06-11T09:51:00.000-07:00

Had 6 hours of sleep yesterday . Atleast i had 10 hours of sleep the previous day . Haha .
Shaniz came over and slept over and i think thats just about it . I have nothing to update . Oh wait , i do . Maybe just maybe im off to Indonesia with Hamna only . Yey ! I cant wait . Release stress and all . I just cant wait .

Big boy , ive tried bottle it up and keeping away from you but i just cant do it <3

2009-06-09T18:30:00.000-07:00

I cant shut my eyes yesterday but i forced it and finally i doze off around 4+ am . Thanks E'in for accompanying me through msn . Was suppose to start our movie marathon but i had tummy ache so , uh huh . Took panadols and off to sleep . Next time aye . Haha . Woke up at 6 in the morning , prayed and helped umi with the dishes and breakfast . I tried going back to sleep after that but i cant so here i am blogging . So yupp .

Ive tried holding back my guard and ego and thank you for being there for me <3

2009-06-09T10:34:00.000-07:00

It felt like the end of the world with the tribute of unwelcome fights that in the end hurt eveybody. From the silliest things, it became such a hustle to their emotions and no one knew how painful it was going thru it. It felt worse than wars and bombs scattered everywhere and the olny thing in mind is to safe yourself . Id rather die saving you cause youre precious . So precious to me that i have to kiss your forehead whenever i leave home , reach home and sleep. The thrill that haunts you every night when you dont get the chance to . Especially tonight . Those lectures really open my heart to see whats in life and to appreciate whats given . Mum , Dad & Sis . Im sorry if ive been troubling you when i was still at the verge of being rather rebelious but not to ze extreme . So , you guessed it right . Here and there advises given but i didnt want to give it a try. Now that ive gave it a try i realise how much difference ive made and hence this is my part and parcel of life which i can never compare to anything . Buy me gifts , give me money , spoil me or everything but it cant be compare to the feeling that i felt when i was given alot of attention and love . I dont want to lose it . Never. I redho everything in god's hand cause i just hate talking about my past and its very shameful. I was being rather pathetic to so called explore the world while i can but thats the silliest thing . Forget about it , i dont want to talk about it . Sleep tight lovebugs. Chalo .

2009-06-09T03:19:00.000-07:00

Ive updated my playlist . Im addicted to this song .
I missing my babes a little too much
Fafa & Adah <3
& the rest too . Ive got nothing much to update
so yea , here goes the boring post of the day .
Chalo lovebugs !

2009-06-08T09:04:00.000-07:00

Had alot of laughter earlier on with Fafa&Adah . Haha .

We were behaving like small kids . Haha .

It was fun minus the part where Adah smells like walrus .

It was Walrus , wasnt it ? I went home early cause something happened .

Dont wish to elaborate about it . Adah ! Have fun working :D

Im still waiting for Fafa to send me the pictures ! Grr .

2009-06-07T11:33:00.000-07:00

Say hello to my new blog skin . Leopard . I love it . Done by myself obviously . Haha .
Minus the heading . Its so big . I cant resize it . Nevermind . I think i shall stick to it for th time being . Okaay , ita 2.36 am and im off to sleep . Nights cupcakes. Chalo !

&to you , i had fun just now . And the answer to your question is
yes . I do , but im just too shy . So here is your answer . Youve wasted paper
just for the sake of it . Haha . You shouldve typed it down . Hahaa C:
Uglyy me . Well , goodnight/morning .

13th June , the days are drawing quite near . And ive got to be serious .
Im not sure of it . I dont want to give fake hopes . Maybe what Marco said is true .
Count your blessings Khai , cause i still have th heart to atleast think of you .

And ohh , fafa was being a retard . Haha . Sorry . Adah ! Have fun tomorrow . Have a great day at work shayaaaaaaank . Missing you oh so badly and Fafa too.

2009-06-06T10:06:00.000-07:00

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If only i could trigger my anger towards you . But whats the point when you dont get what i mean.

2009-06-06T09:56:00.001-07:00

Clock strikes 12.56 am . I have nothing to update . Cause in shivering with fright cause im at home with bibik . At least theres somebody to accompany me . And i cant wait to see whats in store for me the next day . Wait , suddenly i have the urge to blog about you-know-who .
And i think i shall not . Find your way through my private blog . If only you can . So , try hard. I mean very hard. Chalo lovebugs .

2009-06-04T09:54:00.001-07:00

Went to do revision earlier on with Hamna . My brain already karat .
And i wanna rest . Shagged . Will do a proper update soon .
Byebye :D

2009-06-02T01:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday , really taught me a lesson and im trying my very best to forget about him . Hes giving time to think and i have to give him my answer by Thurday .
I cannot run away from reality like Aiman advised me . Face the music .
All thanks to that swine . And Irhamna too (:
Thanks for making my day beautiful souls .

saviour freedom please , im not ready to settle down .
And to make condition worse , i dont want laying back in your arms .
So much misery and happiness too . Well , ape nak jadi , jadi lah .
I redho , its all in god's hand .

2009-05-31T04:03:00.000-07:00

Angelic & flamboyant cause beauty is within the eye of the beholder .
Speaking of that , yesterday went to get a new face powder . And at the same time i bought new eyeliner . My all time favourite ! Haha Ive decided to change it cause sister and mum said i looked fake . And alot of people too . Haha .
So ive decided to change . And the sales girl said that i have a very clean face .
Haha , malu you know . Then , when i reached home , i spot three dots on my face !
So much of having a clean face . Haha ! I immediately washed my face and now , the dots are gone ! Yey ! alhamdulillah C:

Khai asked me to call him , i did . And silly me , i was fooled twice . I called and he didnt answer my call . I was freaking sad and this is so not him . Come on , think about it . If he is serious enough wanting me back in his arms , he would tried so hard . But now , this really shows that he isnt serious enough . And i dont want to settle down for the time being . I wanna experience whats its like being a single lady . Lelaki patah sayap kalau tkde perempuan; thats what my mum said . I dont know wether its true or not eh . Im still looking forward every morning eventhough its mundane . On the other hand , i dont eat my breakfast , lunch and i only eat dinner and i cant believe im gaining weight . I thought that i would be aneroxic but suprisingly , i was wrong . And my eating habits are like haywire , i cant control it . Even thou ive eaten 2 plates , i would search for more food . Haha . Pricisely thats what you get when youre sad . Cheer up Jannah ! Haha . Kay im outs .

xoxo ,

Annah

2009-05-30T22:35:00.000-07:00

Life is a maze and love is a riddle .
All i can ever say is , alhamdulillah .

2009-05-28T23:16:00.000-07:00

I slept at wee hour thinking of things and i shall not pen it down eh . Secret maah .
Oh yaaa , world record . I went to supamarket at Geylang . My god . Itll be my first and last time ill set my foot at any supamarket . At least Shop & Save okay jugak kaan . And theres this Chinese man stepped on my foot . Like omg . So smelly . ):
My slipper smell . Then bus-ed back home and here i am blogging . Nothing much actually .
Currently texting Khai and urm , hes being unreasonable . He say i go Geylang cos i jual Butt . Like what the hell kan . And he said it was just a joke . Joke around ? Yes , but not to tht extend uh . Haiyaaa . Hes not the Khai i used to know .

2009-05-27T23:46:00.000-07:00

He promise to call back . But he didnt . So i assume he was just fooling around .
Kak Aina , you came just in time . thank you so much .
Im an asshole . I hate myself for being so weak

There there , everythings gonna be alright

2009-05-27T01:43:00.000-07:00

Youre constantly getting on last nerve , Its ridiculous and irritating . Have i found an answer ? No . How leyh ? Kak Ria helped me . And i think its best that were off being friends . Kay la , i wanna bathe . Lots of love and tears .

Patch ? Should i ?

2009-05-26T23:44:00.001-07:00

I dont know wether i should be happy or excited about this .
Khai called and asked for patch . Its what ive been wanting but then ,
my heart twisted and i dont know why . Suddenly , My heart says no .
What is that suppose to mean ? I have this feeling when i miss him but i dont want him .
But i get jealous when he is with another girl . How ?? Help !
Jannah , its the day that youre waiting for . Dont delay . And the other half is like ,
come on , move on . He'd probably be happy with a new girl . And theyres a question
lingering in my head . Why now ? Im much more happier now . And to think of it ,
he'll be serving NS soon . Not that soon but few months more . Im much more elated
when he called . It feels like theres tons of pressure on you . Its de decision . Will i regret
later on ? Will i be sulking ? I need help . SOS . Kak Aina ! ):
The only person that cross over my mind .

2009-05-26T22:39:00.000-07:00

I suddenly have the urge to blog about my birthday bash on 3rd February .
Fafa , Adah & Alya planned all of this and the boys :
Khairul , Afzal , Syabil , Syafihan , Kasmani , Shahreen and more i cant seem to remember .
Nisha and Rohani was there too .
But its a lot i tell ya . Imagine they all bash me . Im ubber small . Kay , firstly . Fafa wanted to go mama shop from there i can smelly something fishy . Then suddenly , the boys tag along from behind and thts really fishy . Ahaha . Then the boys gave reason that they wanted to go bubble tea . And i was shocked . The whole battalion go bubble tea ? Weird kan ? Tunggu Fafa macam tunggu buah jatuh dari pokok . Alya lagi lambat . Haiyaa . Then they arrive . Firstly it was Fafa , kononnye die haus beli air . Then Alya and then afterwards , Shahfihan ran towards me with the flour and what can i do kan ? It was too fast . Haha . Then i was stunned . Haha . They all bashed me like nobody's business . Theres M18 scene . Underage not allowed . Haha . Step aku da 18 je . Hehe . Then, i was full of flour and everything . Then off to Fengshan CC . Haha . Then the ladies clean me up. I was like a princess . Haha ! Then We cab down to tampines park . Met Shrek and his friends cause he so called my romantic uh kan bawa pondok nak celebrate birthday . Haha ! Funny siul . Ahaha . Then , after that walked home accompanied by Shrek and Adah . Awwwh ~ a day to remember .
Rewind please .

baby , we were like bonnie and clyde
13o6o7

2009-05-26T03:36:00.000-07:00

Had a conversation earlier on with mum . HAH !

Mum : Dik , ibu nak tanye sikit.

Me : Ape ?

Mum : Kau ade mataer ?

Me : Tak uh , Asal ?

Mum : Takde , ibu tanye je . Sumpah ?

Me : Sumpah , tipu ibu dapat ape seyh :/

Mum : Abeh dengan Khai tu ? Kau maseh dengan die ?

Me : Haha , tak lah . Kan orang da bilang .

Mum : Abeh Muhaimin tu .

Me : Tu kawan je la . Orang da bilang tak nak caye . Die da de mataer laa.

Mum : Abeh , yang Hasif tu ?

Me : Die da mati .

Mum : Sileeeents ~

Me : Bu, if i were to have a new boyfriend , would you allow me to ?

Mum : Studies comes first . Next year youre taking O levels .

Me : yes maam ,

Mum : i put high hopes on you Nurul Jannah , dah gy buat keje kau .

Me : Fine .

Easy say , i share everything with my mum . From knowing a new friend , boyfriend and to break-ups . I still remember the day i officially broke up with Khai , i cried and when my mum returns home from work , she asked . And i lied saying i had stomach ache . Haha . She went inside my room and kept asking . Then she gave up . The next morning she said , ibu tahulah kau da break . Nak tipu dengan ibu . Ibu pun dulu dah pernah alami mase remaje . Tak ya nak tipu . See wht i mean ? She knows everything . Then i bid goodbye and kiss her forehead and went to school . She texted me , to cheer up and think positively . Then , i break down and cried . I put so much faith in him . Never mind . Oh , bout Muhaimin eh , We text like every normal friends do and i was sleeping mum read ALL the messages and the next thing i knew she asked who , why , what and when . Everything . She knows alot . But she wasnt angry la . What for angry kan ? she said , choose your friends wisely . And till now , im still holding on to her words .

Mum , i loveeeee you !

2009-05-25T23:49:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when you want something it just dont appear . When you put in extra effort to it , itll disappear . When youre reluctant , itll come right in your face and you assume its just
another monkey love. Well is that true ? I have this nasty thoughts in me, i dont want it to conqure me . I have enough sadness and ive tried patronizing it. But it just wouldnt work for me. Did i ever cross over your mind when youre with your friends ? It would kill you wouldnt it . And youll call me when you think youre missing me . Im absolutly head over heels for this kind of things. Am i a toy in your eyes? You search for me when you need me. What kind of creature are you ? You never knew how hard it was jeopardizing everything in me. you never knew. Afterall ive been through you still dont see how much i need you. Are you stupid or youre just morally dumb? You and your filthy words that never meant a thing . You say something but you
just dont mean it. Argh . Im tripping more without you by my side .
I wish ive never met you . Even if i shed gallons of tears, you wouldnt be right here with me. Its just another hopeless dreams. Paranoid? I doubt so. Oh god , help me):

2009-05-24T23:40:00.000-07:00

Mum is down with high fever and constant flu . Rushed to the hospital yesterday night at the mids of everything and i ended up looking slugish . Besides that , mum's bleeding nose didnt not stop flowing and theres this undope guy trying to act cool with us and making mum wait and i was pissed of . Broken english some more , want to act cool only . Rushed to the hospital and waited outside cause dad didnt allow sis and me to follow . So yea , drank ice milo and sis had coke and it was My Money . Hehe . You owe me $0.50 sis . Mum's temperature was 38.8 degree and dad was ultimately shocked . Mum was given 2 days mc and thank god it is nothing serious and mum's nose gush out like water pipe . Now tell me who wouldnt be scared . Sis and myself was being a total asshole , we sang while waiting for the results . Haha , it came outta boredom . Dont blame us ! Hee~

I was being a total angel and pushed mum's wheel chair . Yay me . And im angry with dad . Im not going to talk to him . Argh . Super pissed off maan ! Never mind . Im a part time nurse here . Helping my mum out . I dont mind cause i love her .

Kay toodles readers . [ step mcm org bace je blog aku ]

2009-05-24T02:53:00.000-07:00

Im sorry ive rejected you people , im just not ready yet for another relationship alright .
Juvenile of love , i deserve to smile . Please atleast understand me . Whats there to love when my heart can barely beat when it comes to love . Please .

xoxo ,
annah

2009-05-23T21:30:00.001-07:00

Ohh boyy , here i go again . He didnt text me ):
screw youxzxzxzxz !):

2009-05-23T21:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was great ! im shagged .
Yesterday theres this Indonesian guy called me to so called introduce himself .
Hahaha , i burst outta laughter . Then i hung up , he called again .
Finally he texted me saying hes from facebook . Sukma helped me private those things .
Hahaha , cool ! Kay , i wanna bathe . Chalobete love bugs .

2009-05-22T23:03:00.000-07:00

too little too late / imy
begging dont fool me ):
why cant i just get over you ?

2009-05-21T20:58:00.000-07:00

To satisfy me baby , you gotto satisfy my heart .Youll go far in this world if you know how to touch a girl . Show me you can laugh , show me you can cry , show me who really are deep down inside .

Khai called yesterday , im missing him a little too much . Ouch babeh ! ):

2009-05-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

Alright , i think ill not sleep for today . Why ? Cause i need to finish up the essay since Kak Zie texted me informing Cikgu wants it my This Friday . Give me a break please cikgu . Penat . I complained to umi , standard . She gave advises and here i am continuing it . Mum bought bubble tea for me as i wanted it so badly , my all time favourite Honey Milk Tea *melts* . I put the pearl on my face which represents mole . Haha . Keturunan Tahi Lalat . I took a picture and send a Mms to sister and she laughed ! ahaha . I have a cut on my lips ): Cause i ate too much pineapple , serve me right . Lesson learned ! But it really hurts): . I ate alot , alot ! Kay drop it . I was being such an angle helping umi out with house chores cause tomorrow kenduri . I swept the floor , rearrange the furniture , wash the toilet , clean the kitchen , wash plates , fold the clothes , clean the icebox and last but not least helping umi with the rambutans . Angel kan ? Hehe . I know . Show off uh Jannah . Ceyh ! Currently, munching marsmellows umi brought home . Delicious ! I think i need to sart working now , or else bila nak abis kan ? Selamat Malam Readers . And tomorrow Myself and sister will be running the show ourself , wish us luck !

M I M P [I] N D A H !

2009-05-19T22:09:00.000-07:00

Burden is lighter when carried by two . Thank you kakak . If you wanna see a sneek picture of me with my sister , go her blog alryte . Shes cute im mute . Awwh~
Nurul Syuhada , my worst nighmare , my sugarcane , my second mother , my blabber machine , my understanding fishball . If everything were to add up , itll be a bomb ! Disaster . Haha .
Shes discriminating her friends . Haha . Tunjuk perasaan nampak . Hehe !

attention : Blame Cik Ah & Kakak's hero for teaching me how to laugh like pakcik gatal .
Hehe . Get it ? Kalau tk takpe , aku tngh talk chinese . Hehe ! -____-
Stop it Jannah . Hehe . It goes on and on and on and on ! Hehe . Tak Funny kan ? Tahu . Hehe !
Takde orang ketawe pun . Hehe . Kay mrepeeeeeek ! Chalo .

2009-05-19T20:24:00.000-07:00

Im working right now . Serious , no joke . Mum is helping me out with a lady from Alexandra Hospital for corporate gifts . Im blessed to have mum to help me out . At the same time im doing extra work to earn extra cash . By helping Cikgu Naim's essays . All it takes is patience , Itll lead you to sucess .
Payday , huhu ^^ . Im not active in tagged neither am i active in Facebook sorry for late replies as starting from now , imma busy girl . Hehe ! Next stop , Kindergarten !
Money Face eyh Jannah !

2009-05-19T18:07:00.000-07:00

This is the story about 4 individuals named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody.There was an important job to be done, and Everybody was asked to do it. Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did.Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought that Anybody could do it, and Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it.Anyhow, it ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody, when actually Nobody did what Anybody could have done.Does this sound familiar?Has this happened at your workplace, school, social club, sporting club or any other association you've been involved in?
Did that ring a bell ? cool huh .

2009-05-19T09:08:00.000-07:00

Had a great laugh earlier on at Wak house . Disturb Muhammad la , what else kan ? Haha . That toddler is super cute to add on to my misery , he is irritating . Kay , get straight to the point . He didnt reply to my message and im having a problem with my play list , it wont play . Forget it , maybe tomorrow can eh . Well , i have nothing to update but i just want to keep my fingers busy by typing unnessary things . Ahaha . As you can see ive been changing my skin for upteen time and i think ill stick to this . I hate touching my template , my fingers are always itchy to edit things and i end up destroying it . So i shall keep it clean and plain . Lesson learned , im not going to ask anybody to help me out for my blog . I sweaar ! Ahaha . I need to start on my work , ive been lazy these days . I need to get cash . Fast caaash ! Kay nak sleep . Byebye

Muhaimin , last long ngn Rara eyh ! C:

2009-05-19T02:54:00.000-07:00

Sister , i know ive mentioned i hate you several times 5 times a day and 100 times per week .
Well , the truth is that i love you and i know you know it deep down . Youre there for me when im in need your my blabber machine that scolds me if ive done something wrong . Hehe . Youre the most uptight person ive ever met in my whole entire journey in life . And youre like my second mom but much more fierce . You know that ? Thats why i rarely talk to you cause i know ill end up into a fight with you . Hehe . Kakak , my saviour freedom , i love you . I really do . Once youre gone , dont forget to pamper me like princess ok ? Like youve promised . When youre back from school and im still asleep youll blabber and blabber . Ahaha . Cute uh . Pipi goyang mcm fishball . My silly sister that keeps my secrets and advise me to move on if i stumble . Shes there to annoy me , kiss me , hug me name it , everything . My dearest sister , i have a confession to make . You suck when it comes to fights between you and your hero . Sikit sikit lemah . Fight back . I mean settle it . Girl power mane ? Hehe . Sorry !

2009-05-19T02:34:00.001-07:00

Theres this person in my mind that always cares for me and loves me unconditionally .
That particular person can be my worst enemy , my sister , my bestfriend , my mum and my lover . The one that would persevere for me no matter what the outcomes are . The one that teaches me good values and too , my pillar of strength . My bestfriend that is always there for me and stop me from hurting myself and to stop making bad deeds . Shes the one who is always there for me when it comes to relationship problems . Even if i lie , shell know the truth somehow . Shes there to guide me through this hurtful world . When im down , shes there to comfort me , but when shes down , im there but im just not sure how to comfort her . And that is unfair . As a daughter , i should know the tactics to get through her sober and turn it the other way to happiness . Youre always the one that plans holiday vications for our family and never stop providing money to people in need . And mum , only a daughter knows how much pain a mother is going through .I admit she does gets to my last nerve at times . She the one who calls me up everyday to check on me . Mummy , i love you . Youre the apple of my eye and as promised , i would like to change and this changes is the proof how much i love you . Alot .
Youve said that ive disappoint you since im primary 6 and my marks dropped . From my A i got F and i know youre really disappointed in me . Im doing my best to provide you with happiness and love . Once again , i love you mum .

2009-05-19T01:30:00.000-07:00

Im confused , Ubberly confused .
Jyeah im single but please , i have pride in it .
Dont take advantage of me , its unfair .
It hurts , are guys always like this ? Come on , tell me how many
times must i go through this shit ? Im sick and tired of it laaa kay !
You shoot vulgar words to me through your soft wisper and you dont want to admit ?
The way you said to me , its as if im cheap . I hate you )';
Dont you know how it hurts ? Dont you know ?
Im utterly disappointed in you . My heart is sinking because of you . How could you !
My tears , my lonely nights you just wouldnt understand . Even if you tried to , you wont
understand me . Youre just a piece of worthless junk !

Kakak , the days are drawing near . im going to miss you ! <3

2009-05-18T00:22:00.001-07:00

2009-05-17T02:48:00.001-07:00

Blog under maintanence

2009-05-14T23:14:00.000-07:00

Im angry , im really angry . No use venting my anger here . Ill look like an idiotic girl . Well, something stupid happened yesterday night during the wee hour . Blame that person for making me in tears ! Ok Jannah , take the chill pill . Im at home alone . Yes again . Kakak went out with Niz , usual . Im bored , as usual . ive got nothing to update except the fact that i wanna say congrats to that particular person . * scarsm* . Round of applaus ! * crowd cheering *

2009-05-13T07:52:00.000-07:00

Had Chilli Crab for dinner at Mummy Sarah's house . Effing delicious . Finger licking good . Scrumtious indeed ! Ahaha . Be jealous . Muhd Taufiq Hidayat was there . That annoying small kid . Haha . Mum was sleeping and he was playing with this ball and it hit mum . Afterwhich he got so scared and kept quiet . Haha . He mimick everything that i do . Monkey see monkey do as quoted by his sister . Haha , adorable yet irritating . I told mum , could i atleast have a baby brother ? She said no . -____-' Oh ya , if i were to have a baby brother , i would hold a huge responsibility . What if he gets sick ? And who is going to change his diapers . Oh no , not me !
stinky , hahaha . Ill ask my mum to hire a maid if i were to have a baby brother . But , to think of it , i wont be lonely at home . At least i have someone to accompany me . I even said to my mum , if i cant have a baby brother , can i have a cat ? She gave me the same answer . Haha , Mums will always be mum .

Chalo , i have to finish up my wooork .
night pumpkins <3

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2009-05-13T02:10:00.000-07:00

Alright , while i was checking through my mails i came upon a mail sent by my cousin , Irin . Its about a maid and i got really angry after watching the video . I feel like killing that stupid maid . Stupid aah ! Sorry , im just angry . Hahaha ~

I was being sucha angel woke up around 1 check emails , usuals. Afterwhich took my shower cooked for sister and prayed . Ahaha , angel kan ? Obviously everyday i pray kaan . And finally , ive finished the essay or whatever . I slept around 2+ in the morning . Then rply to texts and headed to lalaland . Haha . Nothing special happened today nor yesterday.

Wait , i forgot . Dad and mum went home around 8+ both were like super rowdy. And dad cracked jokes to diss mum . Ahaha . Poor mum . Then , wash the dishes , pray and mum and dad went off to Johore with their friends . Nothing special kan ? Boreeeeeed ~

Congrats Ahle !(:

2009-05-11T05:06:00.000-07:00

It isnt a superb monday for me . But instead i find it sucha bore .
Why ? Cause mum decided to go Johore and i didnt get my pair of Levis jeans .
Wasted ! Nevermind .

Holding back on those days when we had alot of fun and laughters together .
But somehow things come to an end and i blame myself for it . Im missing those
days when we held our hands up high with pride and never let anyone destroy it
no matter what it takes . Upholding every sake that will make us strong . But we
ended up falling into pieces . I regret but whats the use of regreting cause in the end
youll find a replacement . But i believe it takes time and im having a hard time erasing it .
Furthermore , im enjoying my peace . Were even now , yea thats great i guess .
And i dont understand why there is always someone to destroy it and act like a clueless
biatch when they know its their fault . Why dont you take actions against that ?
Answer me . I hate enduring . Time after time i endured . I just sick and tired of it kay !
Like seriously . You being sucha pathetic lozer and glide through your ubber undope life
and not knowing how others feel . Lozer much ? Youre sucha wreck !
Dont pity me cause im not that pathetic like you are .

And to you , stop texting me alright . Mate ni naik malas nk bace .
Haiyaa , thats why i ignored you . Sorry . Im just not myself these days .
I get fired up easily . Sorry if i have not reply to your comments and messages .

*i have to express it somehow . Takmu shiok sendiri and terase kay readers !
chalo !

2009-05-11T04:26:00.000-07:00

2009-05-10T05:37:00.000-07:00

Hello , earthings . As yu can see , ive change my blog's skin . I find the previous skin
rather hectic when it comes to the tagboard . Oh wait , happy mother's day ibu & umi !
You two are the greatest thing tht ever happen to me . Sorry if ive been pain in the butt.
Thats just me :P And sorry for all the nonsensical jokes . Hahaha !
I love you two so dhe very mucch !

Talked awhile with Khai earlier on . Talk craps , usuals .
Hahaa , cicak and gemok eyh ? memories .
then kakak kacau steam , terpakse put down the phone .
haiiiiyaaaaaak . And here i am blogging . Im bored !
eyh , tomorrow holiday kan ? Yok gy tamp mall . Levis jeans are on sale !
Ummi 's treat ! ahahaha . i think ?
we'll see .

2009-05-07T23:45:00.000-07:00

Khairul called earlier on ! [ jumps up and down ] it was so fun talking to him you know .

Its ages since he called , kay itu tipu . Haha ! but who cares . Im happy . Annah jakon !
and he said the three words that ive been longing . awwh . Me too cupcake C:

Forever and ever <3

He said he'll be going for national service 5 more months from now . Im going to miss you . Ahaha , club eyh ? With Kasmani ? I dont think so deary . Haha . Have fun playing takraw . Take care big boy . Much misses !

2009-05-07T22:10:00.000-07:00

Did you hear the thunder early in the morning ?
I was scared and i hid under my blanket and kakak was dead asleep .
Talking about kakak , im angry with her . She ate the whole tub of my ice cream .And im left with nothing at home . Im hungry .
Was suppose to go geylang with Mummy Sarah but the plan was cancelled .Abang called me to accompany him to buy new clothes but i was lazy and i askedhim to accompany me at home cause i was scared of the thunder and he said " pagi pagi mane ade hantu " I was like wth . Haha .Yesterday was fun laa kan , every Thursday is fun tahu ! C:

Shahmi , sent me a message confessing his feeling towards me .

Dude , it was nice knowing you although we were friends
back then but im sorry i pushed you away . You have to move on somehow .
I did , and i think that is the best solution for you . And youve never hurt
me or done me wrong or wtv alright . Theres plenty of fishes in the sea .
Go get them alright . Im not one in a million okay . Even if you were
the last man standing , i wont accept you . Im sorry .
Us being friends is already enough for me cause im pushing myself
to the extreme limit . Sorry i ignored you for months , really am .
Take care of yourself dude ! Keep rocking on ! C:

What shall i get for the greatest mum on earth ?

Help me please . Sis , dad and myself was thinking of that
Calorino bag and the price is worth it i tell you . Its on sale .
Perhaps we should get her Bonia , its her favourite .
Mum , you can put aside you $300 bag . Why ?
cause were getting you a new one ! i think .
i love you mummy <3

The Evil Witch Is Home (!) Help .

2009-05-06T08:37:00.000-07:00

My Ladiees <3

i miss their kecoh-ness . i love you so guys mucch !

xoxo ,

your loud girlfriend

2009-05-05T09:06:00.000-07:00

In the world of hatred becomes love .

Foes to friends .

Friends to lover .

Its not wrong to put it vice versa am i right ? ive learnt to accept things

and guess what ? move on ? yes , move on . Precisely .

And yes , ive make a new friend . Both Male the opposite sex .

It fun , getting close with the ones you rarely talk to and its obvious

enough i had a hard time be friend with them . But at last . Ive succeed .

Im not here in this world to find hatred nor enemies .

Im here to make friends and find peace . Ive find the serenity and peace .

It sounds like going to yoga lessons . But seriously . It all lies within you . Its either youre

dumb or your a smart alex . Ahaha . Do some soul searching if you think im lying .

Ahaha . Ive got nothing else to add on . And ive finally realise

that im not ready for a new one . You dont understand ? Go figure !

Night Pumpkins .

2009-05-05T02:01:00.000-07:00

Ayah , get well soon . I dont like you being cranky at home and just keep quiet .
It makes me feel scared . Really . I cant get over the fact that youre sick dad .
Even when youre sick , you still cooked for us lunch . The thought counts although its just
instant noodle . Ayah , get well soon . I love you . I cant live without your blessings
and love . Ayah , i know ive been a naughty daughter once . Seeing you getting stressed over me
last time . I promise you that there will be no replica of me in the past . I promise .
Your the angel that showed me the light . My life has always been dark . Darker than an empty
room without lights . But you never fail to give me hope and strength to move on and change .
Only allah knows how lucky i am to have a father like you .
When i was still young , you never fail to make me laugh . But now im getting wiser and
i started missing those days with you . Those days with you riding horses and etc .
My happiness all starts with you . If it wasnt for you and ibu , i wouldnt be here .
I love you ayah .

2009-05-04T02:29:00.000-07:00

Jealousy , crime ? i dont think so .

I finally had the chance to see his pretty face and to hear his voice .

At last , gaah . Im tripping more without you by my side .

Thats enough jannah .

Pretend , pretend , pretend .

Oh whatever , i dont give a damm about it !

Shame on you . ergh (!)

2009-05-02T08:25:00.000-07:00

Got alot , but im lazy to freeze all . Ahaha .

Have fun C:

2009-05-02T06:43:00.000-07:00

Bestfriend , thanks for being there when i needed you most .
Thanks for cheering my up . Thanks for putting up a smile on my face .
Youre the bestfriend ! I love you my dearly Haagen - Dazs .
Ahaha , i ketok abang and hamna to buy me this . I asked for Macadamia Nuts .
Instead , he bought this . Never mind its all mine ! <3

2009-05-02T05:21:00.000-07:00

Its such a disgrace that you'd forget someone that helped you alot

in every single thing you do . Be it that person is nasty or the other way round .

Appreciate the help given and dont complain . Its life .

Life is always full with ups and downs , i did quote that perfectly didnt i ?

Then what for you dwell on it and do stupid things that would eventually hurt others ?

Dont you think about the outcomes and setbacks ?

Oppurtunity is given , use it wisely . Dont keep on blaming on others

to save your butt . I dont care if you were to treat me differently from the rest ,

you want some respect dearly , gain it in a good way . I dont coming running

to you to share my inner feelings . Id pen it down if i want to .

Seriously ! I feel nasty these days . I feel like banging my head hardcore .

I dont know why this feeling utterly come and go . If i dont think of any solutions

for this to end , ill be having stroke at the end of this year . Oh wait , this month

rather . Cause im not using my slow - mo plus stupid brain to think .

S.O.S . I need help . Teraphy perhaps ?

I should set my self esteem to another level and go through every single

thing by myself perhaps . Well , before i end this post , its not for anyone .

I swear alright , this is my inner feelings . If you were to take it seriously ,

than id rather privatise my blog , deal ? So yea . Besides , who would like to private

their blog and allow certain people to read right ? Itll be sucha hustle .

Mummy , i love you .

Youre the greatest person on earth . I couldnt ask for anything better

but you , mummy . Youre my first and never my last for me to introduce

to everyone . So here it goes . Dearest reader , I have a special person

in my heart , soul and in my life and it will always stay that way . Shes

the one who support me , trust me , loves me . Name it , she does everything .

From an assistant accountant in work to a multi task mum at home .

The one that would always give me hopes and courage to study hard

and persevere in life to achieve my goals . Doubt it that every parents

wants their child to be the outmost best in everything they do . Mummy ,

im sorry if ive disappoint you , i dont mean it that way . Your wisdom really

opens up my heart to discover every single thing in life . Therefore , youre the greatest mum

in the whole wide world ! i love you for who you are and mum , if it isnt

because of you , i wouldnt be here . I wouldnt know how to read , talk ,

walk , run if it wasnt because of you . Youre everything that i need to fullfill my world .

I promise you mum , when i grow up and have a family of my own ,

ill put you first . I promise . Even when youre lying on your bed waiting for your time to go ,

i promise ill be there for you . Once again , i love you mum .

2009-04-30T22:31:00.000-07:00

Im at Mummy Sarah's crib .

And gawwd , its boring right here . Thank god i bring my books along .

Ahaha . Im furious with Ummi . She promised to go Starhub today ,

ive doll-ed up and guess what ? Last minute plan cancelled .

Haiyaaa . Marco wanted to meet but then i was too lazy cause ive already

change to my home clothes . Aftawhich , chatt-ed with Fafa , she

said shes going to Mcd at Afgan to study . I was thinking to tag along ,

but i was too lazy cause around 4 ill be going to Yishun .

So id rather have my beauty sleep . Had a little argument

with ummi . Hahaha mcm small kid uh kte :P

Abang is bacck , he was supa irritating uh just now .

Dik here , dik there . Dik this , dik that . irrit or whuaaat .

He went out alrdy . Ahaha , he asked me .

" Dik , abang pakai ni ok tk ? "

Me : " Sluar tuu , so baggy . Pakai levis nye jeans uh ."

Him : " A ah eh , alamaaak . Da cuci . "

Me : " Kesian deyh lo "

Him : " Dik , pinjam cemate kau "

Me : " Buat ape ? mata kau masih sihat kan . "

Him : " Abang nk cover eyebag abg , satu malam abang tk tdo . Boleh eh "

Me : *jeling* No .

Him : " Tanam uh kau , tanam dalam dalam . ! "

Me: " diam uh kau "

Ahahahahahahahah ~

Then i pick the clothes for him , and he took alot of my skittles !

and off he goes ! i rritating uhh .

At last , serenity and peace . Hahaha . Im boreed .

Yok bace buku kawan kawan ! C:

Have fun reaading this boring post !

Yesterday Was A Blast !

2009-04-29T19:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a blast !
This laptop is making me effing angry .
So as a result , ill post tomorrow .
Byeee .

Baby Come Back To Me , In My Heart I Still Believe , We Were Meant To Be Together And Forever It Takes

2009-04-28T04:39:00.000-07:00

Its been months without and its days since you called .

Your loud , sexy voice always makes my day . I miss you .

I know its a fat hope hoping that you would come back .

I wish for a miracle to happen . You , come back to me

having fun like we did when we were together .

You , holding my hands crossing the road together safely .

You , winking towards me and make me blush .

You , always staring at me while i eat .

You , smiling at me and make me melt .

You , making me laugh with your jokes .

You , playing with me hand .

You , switching watches with me .

You , carrying my bag .

You , sending me home .

You , sending me to school .

You , sitting beside me in the bus .

You , standing infront of me in the bus .

You , picking on me .

You , being angry towards me .

Its has always been you ; Muhd Khairul Sabirrin Bin Haris .

Oh no , this feeling is haunting me every second i breathe .

Why does it have to end this way ? I need my space .

2009-04-28T02:48:00.001-07:00

Forgive me for i am weak .

My status ? Oh , im single right now .

Whos that guy ? Hes just a friend of mine .

Ive met him last two years when i was still young .

i was 13 years old ? Ahaha , very young right ? I know ~

Haha ! Well , nothing much happen today .

Plan cancelled so yea , i was at home finishing up my projects .

And im like effing angry at myself right now .

I accidentally delete my project . Its almost done ! );

I feel like crying . I spent alot of time doing it and i

guess i have to start all over again . Dammit !

I wanna rest . Byee C:

2009-04-26T20:19:00.001-07:00

Yesterday , ermm ...

i slept the whole afternoon cause it was tremendously boring !

i woke up and check my phone , no msgs and missed calls .

Pathetic . Woke up , wash up and went to Mummy Sarah's house <3

Kak Zizah And Kak Habsah was there .

So i got a chance to meet my cousins somehow . ^^

As usual , yesterday didnt sleep early .

Alright , this time round is final . Hes getting to my last nerve .

Althought sending tht hurtful msg to him was nerve wrecking ,

i have to do it somehow . And the friendship ended .

Thats it , he kept quiet afta i sent him tht text message .

Im scared if ill trip more without you .

Oh craaaaaap ! youre sucha paain .

2009-04-25T23:11:00.000-07:00

I dont know whats wrong with me these days .

Ive been restless , moody and mean .

To you , you got me crying for days .

Doesnt my feelings count ? If your perusal is this way

might as well we go on our seperate ways .

Crap ahhh !

No mood , lozaaaa (!)

-____-'

2009-04-25T01:11:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps , alright .

i was suppose to finish up my sales but in the end

i was too lazy . So i decided to return home and here i am .

Woke up around 10+ and i was late meetin Hamna .

Sorry bayb . Pormise i wont do it again . Then , we decided to have

our lunch at Mc D . Before i went out Ahle called then , he said hes

going tm . So yea , i saw him . I was eating but he

didnt saw me . He called me asked where i was . I saw him .

Hawwwwt . Haha . He asked me to wait for him .

But i had to go . Hehe . Hes angryy );

Then , we walked to tampines library but it was too packed .

Then we decided to go home . And it was so hot outside !

Im telling ya . freaking hot . Tadi ade two cute guy

smile at me at Mc D . Ahahah . awww shucks !

But too bad im not interested . Im currenly bored .

Hamna , Shaniz , Farah , Ummi & Ayah at home .

Tampines 1 , gorgeous and humongeous !

I likeeeeeee C; Okaay itu sungguh tak perlu .

Im outs bayb !

2009-04-24T00:19:00.000-07:00

Didnt i say theyre too precious ?

i did didnt i ?

once again , theyre my everything <3

Theyre the ones who understand me best .

Who always make me happy . And theyre the ones

who open up my heart to change to a better person .

Alhamdullilah <3

Yesterday mood swing really taught me a huge lesson .

I regret , well im not blaming my period or wtv it is .

Im blaming myself cause i didnt try hard enough

to stop why inner emotions . Im sorry .

Billions of apologies . Aftermaths , i apologized

and it went smooth . I felt relief after that .

I have not taken my breakfast and my lunch .

I didnt eat alot the whole day yesterday .

Had maggie plus martabak egg .

Ive got to go . Busy (!)

So text me when necessary alright . Im extremely

busy handling things these few weeks .

Take care lovelies .

2009-04-22T23:46:00.000-07:00

My everything , my family <3

I dont need anything else . Just them will do .

I love them more then the air i breathe .

My favourite and will always be my favourite .

Forever and ever we will stay strong .

2009-04-22T08:38:00.000-07:00

Thanks for that hurtful and harsh words .

Didnt mean to intertwine between you and her .

You came back to me promised that you would change .

You left me unoticed . Youre ego and foolish .

Dont you understand how i feel ? Youre just hurting me .

I hate you . I know youre hating me too .

Oh wells , you said ive ruin your life .

Reality check , you came back . I didnt came back to you .

I detest jerks like you .

Youve got me crying for you alot of times .

I , Nurul Jannah Binte Kamaruddin hereby

promise to never ever fall for Fadli ever again .

And also , to not keep any grudges but to always forgive him .

Dear god , please open up his heart

and to always lead him to a better life and to shower

him with love and care . Change him to a better person .

To make him understand others feelings not only his .

No mending of hearts ,

2009-04-20T20:52:00.000-07:00

Indicating those faint cries in me doesnt me that im weak .

No doubt a girl can be pampered . But im not .

Im in the middle of two . which i dont even understand .

Will be meeting baby Hamna at tamp soon .

So i have to do house spree before going out .

Haiiyaaaa , very difficult leyh .

In the morning ummi was being dramatic .

Funny . Haha . she nagged and scolded me . Afterwhich

she saw my pity face and i think she really fell for my trick .

She zipped her mouth and talk to me nicely . Ahaha .

Funny ummi . ily(:

yesterday went to granny's house and she cooke

Macaroni , its nice ! Then theres al-quran Katam sessions .

Oklah , quite boring . Ahaha . Jahat nye aku .

No more mundane morning for me .

Hamna sleeping over ! Yahooo .

Abang coming home soon . yey !

im outs , gotto get ready .

And i have not clean my bed ! rawrr .

chiao kepos . keep on reading (:

2009-04-19T20:45:00.000-07:00

I wasnt finger pointing to no one in my blog .

Hahahaha ,

My weekends were absolutely great !

I like C: , ill be visiting my grandmother after sister reach home .

Afterwhich i think ill be meeting ummi at simei and ayah will be fetching us .

Abang called early in the morning . I miss him . Alot .

Syahril Umar Bin Taib .

My laughing partner , my favourite brother , my listening ear ,

my shoulder to cry on , my everything . I miss you abang . <3

Im crying my inner child , it hurts .

To think about it again , ill have to jeopardize

all the nonsensical feeling that makes me feel absurd .

Wishing upon a starry stary , glade with all the insecurities .

The prospect of insecurities , and all gone far awaay . How i wish .

Disputing all the nonsense feeling wont do any good

but hurt and tears . Weary eyes are often language as sadness

i wanna feel tears of happiness . Never once in my life .

Looking back at those days where everybody were joyful but now it turned

hectic and chaos . No more wisdom for the sake of enjoying

and now , i wanna relax and flow through my life with endurance

and happiness . Ive lavish every single thing tht really breaks

me down into pieces . Slowly ive build them all strong ,

no more heartache . Thank you Allah <3

2009-04-17T01:30:00.000-07:00

This layout took days and hours .

I dont usually take this long . Hoho ^^

Reason being , i was lazy . Id rather sleep -___-'

Life have been rocky and smooth .

Laughters , smiles and sadness .

Who doesnt go through it right ?

Others drifting away , once go dont turn back please .

Im not strong enough to endure with problems nomore .

Besides , i dont need flasbacks and sadness nomore .

I wanna release my inner visions and insecurities .

I wanna shout , scream , spit , kick those humanoids .

Call me paranoid . Whats there to respect them ?

Theyve bring sucha heart ache to my love ones .

Not to mention those tears too -__-'

Ive got nothing else to say .

Stay tune !

2009-04-14T05:34:00.000-07:00

Hello , basically this is my new blog .

Ive decided to delete the previous one cause i think its dull and old .

So yeaa , besides the old blog of mine

have alot of history .

To open a new chapter of life , i shall forget my past .

My life is alright . Stable indeed with my family around me .

alhamdulillah .

Alright , 15th april is Khai's birthday .

And its tomorrow .

Here it goes , dearest precious Khairul ,

Happy 17th birthday . May it be the greatest day of your life .

We went our separate ways and it would be lovely if

we bumb into each other . Insyaallah [ takde link ]

Mayy allah shower you with love .

Take Care .

Olright , thats it .